Gastbeitrag: How to be an Artist

Start everyday with a physical action. 

Sleep as much as you can. Observe your sleeping cycle, it controls your day. Look for things that make you lose sleep and try to change them. Sometimes if you’re bored by what you are doing, don’t do it. Even if you have deadlines. You’ll keep procrastinating and do things that’ll turn you into a consuming state. Be aware of the feelings and the intentions and do something else, less time consuming than endless scrolling, something that makes your spirits go up, something playful.

Keep questioning your routine. If you tend to do similar things at a similar time & place, change one or all of these factors. If you tend to sit in the living room at 8pm, go to the bedroom. Change the times you go shower. Aware and yet still surprising yourself. Immediately, energy and lust will come back.

Consuming is okay. One needs input in order to give output, no matter what you are consuming. But you have to be aware at every click, every post. Turning off the device unexpectedly, helps as well.

YOU DON’T NEED A ROUTINE TO BE MORE “PRODUCTIVE”. YOU JUST NEED TO FOCUS ON YOUR INTENTIONS AND CHASE EVERY STEP YOU DO. DON’T DO THINGS HALF-HEARTEDLY BUT ALSO DO A THING BY DOING IT AND NOT THINKING IT.

SLEEP. Watch your dreams. The cinema of the subconscious. 

Listen to the impulses of your body and follow them. Your body longs for movement and you don’t need to force it, it moves by itself the way it wants to move.

Life is too short for advertisement.

II

M.I.N.D.

Resistance is power. Bringe dich in Situationen, die von dir Widerstand verlangen. Sei es Angst, sei es Unbequemlichkeit oder Wut. Emotionen sind gut. Sie bringen dich an deinen Körper zurück. Den Handlungsablauf einer Situation kannst du immer beeinflussen mit deiner Zustimmung oder deinem Widerwillen. Pass auf, dass dir die Dinge nicht einfach passieren. 

Sondern dass du entschieden ja oder nein sagst. Und dieses Ja/Nein kann kompliziert sein. Soll es sogar. Fünfzehn Mal umgedreht, links, rechts, oben, unten. Stehe zu deiner Unsicherheit, aber lass dich nicht von ihr verunsichern. Kommuniziere, wenn du jetzt gerade keine Entscheidung treffen kannst. Der Austausch führt oft dazu, dass du a) eine Bestätigung bekommst und b) die Situation sich löst und man weitergehen kann.

Bleib nicht unnötig stehen. Und bleib stehen zur gleichen Zeit. Ein authentisches Überlegen ist wichtig und gut, wenn du aber die Antwort weißt, dann sag sie aus deinem Herzen heraus. Und meistens kennst du sie schon, es ist allerdings die Fragen zwischen dem Innen und Aussen. Deine Innenwelt ist weiter und woanders als die Außenwelt und der Kampf besteht oft darin, die zwei Welten zu synchronisieren. Eine Balance zu finden. Das Außen weiß nichts von deinem Innen, wenn du es nicht nach außen bringst. 

Tue die Dinge, die dir Angst machen. Kleine und grosse Dinge. Die Wahrheit sagen, Konfrontieren, Schwarzfahren, Klauen. Alles, was einen Widerstand bei dir auslöst. Tu es. Radikal. Und tu es aber auch nicht, wenn es nicht um dich geht. Wieder Balance. Das Ding mit der Wahrheit ist jenes, das sie oft unausgesprochen im Raum steht. Wenn allen klar ist, was Sache ist, muss man nicht mehr sprechen, sondern dementsprechend handeln. Die Bevorzugung des Physischen über der Aussprache, bringt die Beteiligten weiter. Ist aber etwas auf der Brust, was dich schwerer macht, dich runterzieht. Dann raus damit. Und wirklich raus, wie den Müll rauszubringen. Diese Energie wird wieder recycelt. Selbst wenn es zu einem Konflikt führt.

Konflikt ist gut. Es ist ein Austausch zwischen positiver und negativer Energie. Lieber einmal krachen lassen, als alles sauber stehen zu lassen. Den die Sauberkeit dient nur dem Anschein, von Innen ist es dreckig. Konflikt ist die Reinigung.

III.

DECISIONS

When you leave the house to go into one direction, you are making a decision. You are forced to as you cannot go both ways, or all ways at once. You need to go one way which you have decided to go. Be it because the supermarket is that way and you need to buy something to eat. The fact that you are buying something in the supermarket is also a decision. Not even really made by you as what are the alternatives? You could grow your own food, share it with your neighbours, steal. But that’s uncomfortable. Some people tend to do one of those alternatives, some don’t. But they have made the decision. That’s important. No matter how much power or money you have, you can always to decide whether to get your milk in a carton from the supermarket or from the cow directly. 

You are in the supermarket now. What are you buying? How much do you want or do you have to carry? Did you come by car or by foot? By train or by bike? How many bags do you have with you or are you gonna buy some plastic bags at the check-out? How much money do you got with you or are you gonna pay by card?

These questions and the decisions you have made about them, influence your consumption in the supermarket. Many people do not notice the power of their decisions in such moments. They buy what they always buy and behave the same way. Because they are always doing it. It’s a habit. 

How much of what are you buying that is going to end up in trash. How much are you paying for said trash? If everyone would question the packaging of their food, the industry would change. It has changed before, it will change again. How does the market work? Everything that is asked for, will be produced. If there is no one eating and buying apples, you won’t find as many apples there as now and for a much more expensive price. If less people buy meat, the industry has to roll back – cause how much money do they want to lose? 

SECURITY

I have observed my father’s pantry and his consumption habits. Every time he goes shopping groceries, the cart is full even though there is literally no space for the items he bought. And still, there is a fear. A trauma of Soviet-times which illustrates itself in a full shopping cart, a full fridge, a full pantry, a big stomach. 

The preference of having more stems from the fear of having nothing. What if there comes a crisis, a storm, a war? What if? Even though this fear is not entirely irrational, it still creates a burden.

My father is now moving to another country. For me it would mean to take my belongings into a backpack and go. Ciao. Arrivederci. My father has to fill four, five cars only with stuff to transport from one country to another one. He is stressed, bothered and then I ask myself: what do you actually need? If you need all of this, and you are taking it with you consciously: that’s perfectly fine. But I know him, I know his stuff: he does not need even half of the things. This makes me sad as it is not only a burden on him and his wife, but also for me and my brothers. 

Because of bureaucracy. Moving, registering means bureaucracy which can cause stress as well because, because, because – I will dive in to this topic later.

Anyway. My father has bought a house he wants to retire in. Wonderful. He has bought it to give something to us after his death. Great. But who is supposed to clean this house? who is going to take the burden of getting the things out we don’t need? Apart from losing a parent at some time, the bureaucracy and the costs will come at us. As well as the burden of the things they have gathered to feel safe. But you are never safe, you can die any second. 

Why do parents load this burden on their children with their things they didn’t need in the first place? 

My mother has at some point learned this lesson. She lives in a small space, is outside a lot. But she has still a lot of stuff, especially books.

I love reading books, physical books. But I also have read many books because they are “good” , “classics” but actually they didn’t inspire me. My reading habit has changed and I ended up reading more, when I lifted those labels from books. I find books on the street, in shops, I read them. If I don’t like them, if they don’t do anything to me emotionally, if I am not interested with my heart in the information I get, why bother reading? I read with my whole body, not only with my head. For a few months, I have noticed that the book that I attracted and I started reading had always something to do with my current situation. If this wasn’t the case, I couldn’t dive into book. Because it wasn’t nourishing. 

Reading means you invest your time and your mind in the thoughts and stories of another person from another time and situation. This is work. Pleasant work and still work. Why should you be bothered with thoughts that don’t give anything to you while you are giving a part of you and your time to the book and in that way to the author? 

What I meant to say is, if a book doesn’t nourish me, I won’t read it, I give it away, put it on street. It doesn’t mean it’s a bad book, it just means it’s not good for me. Not the right shoe, it doesn’t fit. It might fit later but that is not a reason for me to keep it. As I believe as well in the attraction. If I need a book with certain thoughts in a certain time, I will attract said book and it will find its way to me. 

My mother has kept a lot of books which she also gave away. But how many books can man read? Honestly I am afraid of the day where I have to sort out all the things that didn’t inspire my mother, that she just kept because it made her feel intellectual. Because the stuff she has, makes her her own prisoner. She cannot go, wherever she wants to go. Physically, mentally. 

LESSON LEARNED

If you want to make a person free, you have to understand where they are coming from. Tipping in to their world, their mindset. If you say: “you are not free”, they will have other prejudices about you. You reap, what you sow. If you are not willing to meet them halfway, they won’t meet you there either. However, if you dive in to their thoughts, sorrows and take them seriously, they will reflect this upon you and treat you differently so that you can convince them of your thoughts, your mindsets. But you need to accept, that they have accepted you and themselves. 

Eine Erkenntnis (27.07. 23:25):

Ich kann nicht zuschauen, wenn jemand sich das Leben zu einfach macht, sich die Dinge zu einfach erklärt. Wenn sich jemand wegbeamt und woanders ist mental. Es verletzt mich, wenn ich mich mental und physisch aufreisse und nichts zurückkommt. Ich versuche den Weg oder einen anderen, aber irgendwann ist der Sprit alle und die Enttäuschung gross. Wenn ich das Gefühl bekomme, mein Handeln, meine Worte haben in der Situation einer anderen Person nichts bewirkt, dann fühle ich mich sinnlos. Dann habe ich keinen Sinn und bin der Sisyphus, den ich in die Person projeziere. 

Aber ich erwarte, dass es etwas ausmacht, wenn ich mit einer Person verwickelt bin, dass es etwas bei ihr bewirkt und damit wiederum bei mir. Darum werde ich immer wieder enttäuscht.

HÖR AUF, DICH IN DEN BODENLOSEN KONSUM FALLEN ZU LASSEN. STEH AUF!

„Steh auf, jetzt oder nie. Wir haben zu viel geschlafen und das Leben ist halb vorbei“ SEEED

Zweite Erkenntnis (28.07.20 22:58)

Niemand will sich emotionale Instabilität ins Haus holen. 

Thought of the day (04.08.20 20:02)

Imagine a world, where you could get anything what you’d like. But you were not allowed to consume it. Things could only be used for a purpose. No hedonism, no lust. Just pure pragmatism. Where does consumption start? When you put something in yourself or in your space, that you don’t need, that you don’t use, that you don’t like to the fullest. When you allow something to enter your space unconsciously even though you were the decision maker. Anything else is not consumption in its modern sense. It is nourishment. As the seeds need water and light to grow, your mind, body and soul are alike. But a plant dies, if you overwater it. If you give too much to your body, it will not exist for you but for anything else that excludes you.

Gabriela Bertin